Crappy New year? Does everything happen for a reason?

So excuse the title of my blog but only way to be honest about how this new year has started. Started off with me trying to help a five year old girl after being hit by a car, but unfortunatly she died on the scene. Its a very hard thing to deal with and im not the sort of person who likes talking to strangers (councellers) about it so i have delt with it my own way by talking to friends and this has seemed to have helped me deal with it.I just hope the family know i did all i could, and if she did die right there that i was holding her hand. However maybe i shouldnt have been driving the day after this as i ended up crashing my car, no injuries just the poor car very injured and me feeling so guilty as i share the car with my mum.
But after all this i have now realised how well i deal with bad situations and how much i love being around children so i am now trying to get an apprenticeship with a nursery.
Which makes me question does everything happen for a reason?

I have decided not to make resolutions this year just because i never stick to them, i have just got goals.

1. Love myself more- dont listen to what nasty people say be comfortable with who i am and what i look like, eat well and work out well.
2. Sort out money- dont spend spend spend SAVE SAVE SAVE!!
3. Work in a nursery
4. Concentrate on my photography- Photography has taken a back seat at the moment as i havent really had the time but i want to really try and get some more photos for my portfolio.
5. Appreciate what and who i have got- Because you never what you have got until its got

Love to all of you and all who you and i care about.... Naomi x