Questions...Questions... and more Questions!

...so i ended up leaving college and since i have been so much happier! So at the moment i am just concentrating on christmas, working at tesco all hours they can give me!
Last monday i turned 19! Was a really strange birthday as i wasnt as excited as i have been previous years is this wrong?... although i did enjoy bowling with my friends and brother to celebrate it!

However i have had lots of problems with my "best friend" she has been with her boyfriend for about 10 months now and since then i haven't really seen much of her, but i have kept texting/ calling her, although not always a response back. Me and other friends have always invited her out with us but she usually says yes then 'something comes up' (sorry this is so long winded just want peoples opinions/advice!) ..so finally this saturday i invited her out she said definitley at the beginning, then on my birthday said she might be busy so might not be able to then changed her mind again, then later on in the week she said she wasn't to sure again as someone she went out with for a week was going to be there then she said she would definitley come. Then finally one the day going out i text everyone asking if they were definitley coming and she seemed to get really offended by this as if i was having a dig at her and ended up saying 'she's not coming to be abused my me'. Now i look at this and it seem's as if were 12 again im just wondering am i a bad person if i dont contact her? i just feel like i have given her so many chances and now dont know what to do!? advice please!!!

On better news!! i passed my driving test!! the freedom is great although i am trying not to take the mick with using mum's car but its so hard not to want to drive constantly!!!!! anyway sorry about all the questions but any advice i would appreciate!! xxxxxx

Stuck in a rut

Finding myself in a bit of an awkward situation at the moment although i am enjoying my college course i am finding it really hard to work with girls who our either younger then me or have a mental age of 15! And my passion for photography is so much stronger then it is for make-up i just want to concentrate on my photography more then make-up. I know everyone keeps telling me to keep my head up and not listen to them, but for someone who has struggled with there issue with there weight for most her life it is so hard to ignore when comments are made. I just feel very un-happy at college but enjoy the course when we learn new things what to do!?